Memories, gratitude, not just gratitude – but deep gratitude from the depths of my heart rise softly and I recognize in every cell of my being the wellspring of Love that has held me, my family, my prayers, dreams and hopes so tenderly this year.
Looking back, what seemed impossible and what I couldn’t see or understand – it was my vision of hope that inspired faith.
I counted on the tiniest seed of faith having the power of all of life within it, and trusted grace to bless my life with miracles. Grace. Thank you.
Every year I cherish the last week in December, the quietness in my heart that ponders and reflects, remembers and appreciates, laughs and cries – and dreams of expansion of life and more love.
This morning’s reflection caught me by surprise….I had forgotten about this day. It was a very significant day for me.
For many years my husband Don and I would occasionally frequent a crystal and gemstone store downtown. This store was rather unusual, not exactly attractive or magnetic, in fact it was filthy, disorganized and cluttered. Underneath the dust and clutter were beautiful crystals from all over the world. I often dreamed of cleaning that place up and creating a show place, polishing those precious stones so their beauty could shine through.
The elderly owners were grumpy, stingy and made it very clear they didn’t trust anyone. Don joked with them anyway and we would have short warm conversations until finally we gained their trust and would get a smile when we walked through their door.
Their store was for sale – I think for at least a couple years. One day, to our amazement – they told us the store had sold and they had to be out in a month. A week before they closed we stopped by. They were still offering only 10% off. It didn’t look like much inventory had moved from 3 weeks ago – they seemed undaunted.
Two days left before their doors closed for good – it was Saturday. I remember driving onto the onramp and thinking about them and their store. I toyed for a moment of stopping by – and then dismissed the thought and went on with my day. The store closed.
Months later – I am at another gemstone store in town. I asked the owner if he knew this older couple? He knew them well — here’s what he told me.
This couple maintained the 10% discount on their inventory until the very last day. Hardly anything sold, and so they ordered several huge dumpster bins to be delivered that very day I thought of stopping by.
Mountains of beautiful gemstones, crystals, geodes, gold and silver were dumped into the garbage and hauled away.
I was stunned, and my body felt weak all over! These people who hoarded every penny, every precious crystal, who were so afraid of losing money – just dumped it all in the garbage. My heart was sick – an abundance of sacred beautiful earthen treasures that could have graced homes and lives…were now lost in a landfill of rubbish.
I learned a lot that day – a lot about how useless hanging on and never letting go can take a lifetime of joy away in the sum of present moments and stop the flow of receiving blessings.
These people were afraid of not getting enough – and ended up not getting anything.
Fear kept them in prison. What they believed about life and money contracted them into a very small life. They lived like they were super poor, they looked and talked like they were in poverty, and yet they had been millionaires for years and years.
What a day. What a perfect day. I promised I would live – I would love – I would laugh – I would open my heart and let go – I would receive- I would be generous – I would cherish life, gifts of the earth, each other, most of all, grace.
Love is so much bigger than you.
Look for Signs of Love. (remarkable story – scroll down)
We almost hyperventilate, in the least our breath is shallow moving in and out, staying just above our waist. I suppose it’s because we automatically breathe – that being conscious of breathing is last on our priority list when life is going full throttle in the fast lane.
Can you relate? Even though you are enjoying the pace, excitement and changes – it is so easy to not be grounded. And then you feel so disconnected, and the hunger pangs in your spirit call to be filled with beauty, truth and simple quiet moments of stillness. And so, you finally listen.
That’s how I had been feeling. The day was glorious. I locked the office door behind me and hopped on my bike so that I could taste the fresh air and and sing with the river beside me.
When we pause for tiny moments to notice beauty and breathe deeply, every cell resonates, revives and our spirit comes alive. (that’s what loving does for us.)
This early evening I parked my bike and stretched out across the bench and looked up into the blue sky with a few scattered fluffy clouds, then closed my eyes and listened to the flow of the river.
In one precise eternal moment, I opened my eyes again and looked up. I saw the sky had opened and this enormous sky heart was hovering directly above me – it was an incredibly large heart, so, so much bigger than me.
Love is ALWAYS bigger than you and me. The me that has to figure it all out, and do, do, do…especially do it ‘right’. Love is SO much bigger.
Let go today and Love. Fill your spirit up going where you love and take in moments of beauty, connect deep inside to the life of you, the breath of you – and know – know you are deeply loved, always loved.
Frame everything in Love –
and see all things working together for good.
Look for Signs of Love in all that ‘appears’ to be – and trust.
Sometimes life can look and feel as though nothing is good, or that all that is happening around us could ever turn out for good. Framing our experiences, conversations and those in our life in Love – clarifies our vision and helps us trust that all is well.
This orchid heart is one of Debbie Jones one million orchid blossom designs (OM Blossoms) on the big island of Hawaii.
… and Love always holds us.
Breathe deeply and let go into Love.
** Jeanette Philips spotted this amazing heart rock at the Eugene Farmers Market, the owner of the rock had stepped away from her booth so she wasn’t able to hear where the rock was from. Holding this incredible Sign of Love was enough.
What if you let Love . . .
Light your way?
Look for Signs of Love today. Love will light up the right answer, the next best step and the most beneficial choice.
** Fire dancers in Eugene, Oregon at the Oregon Country Fair made this spectacular performance.
Photo by Lily Crowheart in Eugene, Oregon.
Love with all your heart all that you love.
Play in the magic and fortune of Love today.
** a beautiful shamrock plant on Deonne Wright’s (www.deonnesaromablends.com) table.
sending you love and luck today.
Love’s twin is easy to tell –
it is full-out deep appreciation.
Fill yourself up by appreciating little things today – they are all Signs of Love.
** this is the other rose that was blooming on my rosebush that day – there were three roses in bloom and two of which were unfolding in a shape of a heart at one time!
Love is a flow that makes hard places smooth.
Look for Signs of Love because even in the rush of life is Love.
** this heart rock was in Ashland Creek at Lithia Park in Ashland, Oregon. I used to walk beside this creek and listen to it sing while I repeated a mantra ‘breathe in Love, breathe out fear’ . Sometimes I’d sit on a rock and let the ‘living’ water flow through my hands and fill my spirit up.
Love always points to higher thoughts
and ways of being –
That’s where the Light is – Look for Signs of Love.
** It’s a summer photo of Mt. Theilsen in Oregon and the is snow gone. Deonne Wright (deonnesaromablends.com) sent this in, and she wrote that she is so amazed she never noticed the heart before until now. Like she said – ‘we see what we’re looking for.’
…and I’ll just add…look for signs of Love today!
Live so that Love is tangible –
Touch the world with your Love today and Look for Signs of Love.
** Debbie Jones (debbiejones.org -OM Blossoms) looked across to the City of Refuge in Honaunau, Hawaii at this Sign of Love in a tree. Debbie wrote..” I see Signs of Love everywhere, even when they are abstract!”